Long Absence

Unfortunately I don't really have a whole lot of fun to talk about just yet. Right now I'm just going to explain my absence. Things have been really rough for me as of late. I suffer from clinical depression. I've been dealing with it for a few years now, but I've been medicated for it for about two years. Earlier this year I thought that It would be safe to come off my medication, and that I could handle myself without it. That was not the case at all.

My depression mounted and became extremely severe. It strained my job, my grades, and my relationships with my friends. I don't feel like I have any reason to lie or to not speak the story as it happened, so I'm going to tell the truth. I became suicidal. It's very hard for me to say that word. I would say things like "I hit my low." or "I almost did something stupid" but what all that means is that I I tried to kill myself. It's really scary now that I look back on it, and it makes me so glad that my  father was there when he was. If he hadn't been I might not be able to write this.

But everything is reflective. I look back on that and am so grateful that I wasn't given a chance to go through with it now. Things are getting better now. I'm back on a steady regiment of my medication.  I was able to purchase a car which allows me more mobility to see my friends. It's really nice, and I am getting better.

Things are a little stressful though. I'm working a lot and my school is requiring a lot of my attention, so I'm not really doing a whole lot of anything. I'm going to try and post more regularly though, if anything to just give me a chance to clear my mind.

I leave you guys with a photo from my Halloween. Enjoy the image of Drunk Me on the floor
See you guys next time
~<3 B